I can’t believe it has been a whole month since I announced my pregnancy. A lot of people told me that it would come and go so quickly with the second, but I didn’t actually realise how fast they meant. Half of the time I forget I am even pregnant, which is a nightmare when it comes to remembering to take my vitamins. I have been meaning to set an alarm on my phone for the whole month, but I keep forgetting that too. Brilliant.
As I am writing this, I am 8 weeks and 3 days, and baby is around the size of a wild strawberry.
I am still majorly anxious about my 12 week scan, despite seeing the heart beat already. I know that seeing the heart beat one day doesn’t actually mean you will see it the next, especially with early pregnancy being so temperamental. The risk of miscarriage is still 1 in 3 until 12 weeks.
Also, every evening, I have started to get aching, period type pains (not that you’ll be reading this, men, but if you are… I guess you will never know how that feels, you lucky bastards). I keep telling myself that it is probably just growing pains, and I never actually had any warning signs at all when I lost my first baby, but the waiting between scans does begin to eat away at you. Thankfully, I don’t have that long to wait.
I have the worst boob pain imaginable, extreme fatigue, nausea on and off, and the occasional migraine. I have also noticed that my hair is insanely greasy more often and I can’t stop weeing.
The fatigue is horrific. I am lucky if I can stay awake for longer that 8 hours at a time, and I am stupid because I am going back to work to do long shifts very, very soon. That also explains the lack of blog posts. I have wanted so much to type something up, but I have been stuck in a rut of curling up in a ball and relaxing as soon as other half gets home from work, trying desperately not to fall asleep.
Another thing to note, is that the difference between this pregnancy and O’s pregnancy is crazy too. As I said, I am lucky if I actually remember that I am pregnant, and I never read my daily pregnancy updates because I never have time. I actually had to look how far along I was to include it in this post. With O’s pregnancy, I was clued up on EVERYTHING. I knew approximately how long he would be, how much on average he would weigh, what was new that week… as soon as I hit the week, I would be reading about it. I couldn’t believe that the baby was already the size of a strawberry. I thought that came when you were like 15 weeks. Oops.
It’s not that I am not excited, but my mind is just filled with first baby drama. I have the worst behaved 18 month old at the moment (there will be a post on that soon) and with the constant need for sleep, there is always something else to be doing. I do feel extra guilty though.
I am going to write my next update following my 12 week scan, unless something is to go wrong beforehand. Keep your fingers crossed for our little family, and follow me on social media for more regular updates!