Here I am again, telling you about how I am back from a well deserved blogging break. I haven’t really been around the past 2-3 weeks. I stopped using social media, and tried to avoid my phone as much as possible. We had a weekend away in Berwick, and we visited Holy Island too (where I snapped that picture above).
We Were On A Break (Blogging Journey Update)October 3, 2017
It’s all very repetitive, I know.
Its true, but it’s not the full story. I am just exhausted and extremely bored.
It may be a personality fault, but I am either 100% committed to something, and it is all I can focus on, or I am bored and feel guilty about not caring. When it comes to blogging, lately, it’s the latter.
Sometimes I feel like I put so much effort in, and get nothing back. Getting nowhere and my numbers gradually decreasing has caused a major knock in how I feel about this whole thing, but I know it’s my own fault because I’m not taking it seriously enough.
I want to push myself into following a regular schedule. I’d love to receive genuine comments and regular visits from an audience who care. I want to be able to review whatever I please, and earn thousands per month doing it. I could only dream of blogging for a living.
I don’t have a schedule, I don’t post regular topics, and I feel like I’ve won if I actually remember to share a post across all social medias. I’m a bit rubbish at putting myself out there, to be honest.
However, even though I’m desperate to blog, I physically can’t sometimes, and I get so disappointed with myself.
I never want to force myself to write either, because I know what I write won’t be real. You can always tell when something is forced, and when the person has no passion behind what they’re saying.
Any spare time I have now is usually spent snoring or eating toblerone. Honestly.
If I am honest though, sometimes, I do feel like all of this is a waste of time. I don’t have a blog goal. I don’t aim to have 2000 followers on Instagram by the end of the year. I’m not interested in begging people to follow me. If they do, it’s a bonus, but I hate to ask people because I feel like it drives them away. I’m trying to change this, though.
I started my blog because I wanted to voice my opinions and share how crap my day had been, without ramming it down people’s throats on Facebook. We all know that if you air your dirty laundry on Facebook, you’re secretly as hated as the MLM distributors. I’m sure we all know someone we can’t delete on Facebook who sells some overpriced shite.
I am so annoyed at myself for not putting more time and effort in though, but I don’t know where to go from here. Do I aim for this to be my full time job? Do I start trying more on Facebook or Instagram? Do I push myself further and start trying to pitch to companies?
What if they don’t have faith in little old me? Will it be a waste of time?
Luckily for me, I have an excellent group of blogging friends who help every day. Some of the people I have met are wonderful, and without them I would have given up this whole thing months ago.
Over the next few weeks I am going to completely redesign and attempt to push myself forward, aim for goals and try to post 2-3 times a week. It’s very ambitious for me, but hopefully one day I will have something to show for it and all of those goals above may become a reality. If not, at least I have more of a shot than I do now.
We shall see.