So it’s time to talk about the one thing that has been bothering me for the majority of my life. My weight.
I have almost always had weight issues in some way or another.
When I was 14 I was bullied immensely for my size. When I was 16 I actually dropped almost 4 stone in a few months, despite not needing to whatsoever. I was painfully thin at one point, counting every single calorie and limiting myself to a minuscule amount per day. I was developing a serious eating disorder, and this went on for well over a year incessantly.
Then I met Anthony, and he changed my mindset completely. I started to focus more on being happy, as opposed to just obsessing over the way my body looked. After a few months, I began to recover and I was a healthy weight for the first time in my life.
Then I had a miscarriage. I was so down, I went the opposite way, and I just comfort ate. I’d eat, and eat, and eat some more. I stopped weighing myself every day and instead I just avoided the scales completely. Before I knew it I had gained about 4/5 stone. Shortly after that, I had fallen pregnant again with Oscar, so the last thing on my mind was a diet. I just wanted to keep him safe, so I ate all of the things I was supposed to eat, and gained another stone doing so.
I promised myself I would get back to a healthy weight after he was born, but it just didn’t happen. Through newborn tiredness and overall exhaustion, we just became reliant on takeaways. Another stone and another baby later, here I am today. Almost 4 stone over the weight deemed “healthy” for my height.
Losing Weight The Healthy Way
Having gone through so many unhealthy “diets”, I figured it was time to actually do it the right way. I am going to try Slimming World from home, as well as normal calorie counting and avoiding fatty foods. Basically just avoiding everything I know is bad for me, but with a “Slimming World” mindset/plan. I won’t be going to groups or signing up, but I have joined a “Slimming World From Home” Facebook group which is so helpful!
I decided to start this series, mainly as motivation, but also because I would love to document the whole process. The main goal is to be healthy at the end of it all and hopefully by sharing meal ideas/inspiration I can encourage other people who maybe feel the same way as me.
Having given birth to George 3 months ago, I have decided that now is definitely the time to throw myself into it. I’m not aiming for a “quick weight loss” and I have a feeling that it will take quite a few months, but I would much rather it took a while than opt for the quick loss I had before as a result of starving myself.
The Dreaded Part… Stats
I feel so nervous but if I didn’t tell you my stats, what is the point?
My BMI currently comes out at 32.1 which marks me as obese. I know a lot of people don’t take any notice of BMI though, so for those of you who are into the nitty gritty:
Height: 5’10 (I know, I am very tall, thankfully!)
Starting Weight: 16 st / 224lbs / 101kg
Target Weight: 11 st / 154lbs / 69kg
I have also taken measurements of every part of my body as I know the number on the scales isn’t always an accurate representation of what you have lost. I am trying not to get so hung up on numbers though. As a tall woman, I know I definitely don’t look how most people would picture 16 stone.. but I am seriously unhealthy. I can’t walk up the stairs without getting out of breath. The general exhaustion I feel constantly also gets me down.
According to the NHS website, my healthy weight is between 9st 3 and 12st 9, so I feel like 11st is a good overall target. Slap bang in the middle of the healthy range.
So this is officially my “before” photo.
Unfortunately, as much as I love this picture of me and O, I also detest it all the same. I was so unhappy with how I looked and it made me realise how much I miss out on photos because of how self conscious I am.
I will continue to cherish this photo of us both though, regardless of my weight.
Weekly Weight Loss Series
My series will run every Saturday. It will include what kind of things I have ate through the week, any struggles I may have, how active I have been and a weekly weigh in (eek!). I will also share meal ideas/inspiration and recipes or ideas from other bloggers too. I am so excited for you to follow me on this journey, and now I have posted this, there is absolutely no going back.
Here’s to healthy weight loss!